I had been questioning myself over and over.
Who am I?
What am I doing?
What had I done?
What am I thinking?
Why do I behave like this?
Did I really change?
I am no longer the person I knew anymore?
What is happening actually?
What the fuck?
These questions made me struggle occasionally.I couldn't really get the answer I wanted.I even bang my head to the wall terribily at times.
Today,
I got what I demanded for a very lengthy period but at the same time I lost something that I never ever wish to lost.
I truly love and heart you.I knew a sorry wasn't the solution anymore. I don't mean to do that to you.
Yours truly,
Ivan Au, the person that I don't know anymore...