??? - 23th of May 2008, Friday,
I was quite busy to prepare for my finals for the past whole months and I am glad that I had got through it.

It was stressful, damn stressful I would say. I actually underestimate the amount of stuff that I had to studied and absorb into my brain. This is the only semester that I am still studying with my papers are actually held in the next day.

And that was the amount of my notes that I had to wrote in order to prepare for my finals. I done it in one month time actually. And that is useful ones. You will never want to see the one with my scribbling and calculations.

Introducing Wai Fun and Bernard. They are actually quite friendly and helpful. We studied together and yeah, it was fun to study with them. We actually chat at mamak stall near my house from 12 a.m. to 5 a.m. . I had never done that in Malacca ever since I went there to study. I appreciate those time actually.

See no evil right? That is no some sort of lamp or lamp post you know? Exam tension you know?

Mathematics anyone?Haha...
So there goes all my papers for this semester. I am not really sure whether I will get through this semester despite all of the papers looks manageable but I still worry about my thermodynamics' paper. It was manageable but mistakes that I made were horrendous, anyway what is done is already done. End of story and I don't want to think about it anymore there another semester. Really have to pray to pass this time.

There is always hopes if we believe it. Right?
26th of May 2008, Monday,
Hello Subang and bye bye to Malacca, for three weeks I supposed :( . Just when I stepped into my house. My youngest brother, Nicholas talked to me.
Nicholas : Noob, U slim down already wo.
Me : Yea meh?
Nicholas : You look like a small kid.
Me : =.='
My mum eventually was beside me.
Mum : Wa really slim down already wo. Malacca got nothing to eat ar?
Me : ....
Mum : Nicholas was right. You even look younger than him.
Me : swt ==.==*
So, I kept quiet. My brother is in his standard 6 only. I am 20 now and I look younger than a 12 years old kid??
Besides that, I felt more comfortable to stay at home despite spent most of my time in Malacca. Sorry to say that, feelings of staying at my own house is simply hard to describe but I am still miss her :(
MUACKS!
LOVE U <3
AND I REALLY MISS YOU SWEETHEART
*HUGSSSS*Yours truly,
Ivan Au, 2633...yea...
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I had been questioning myself over and over.
Who am I?
What am I doing?
What had I done?
What am I thinking?
Why do I behave like this?
Did I really change?
I am no longer the person I knew anymore?
What is happening actually?
What the fuck?
These questions made me struggle occasionally.I couldn't really get the answer I wanted.I even bang my head to the wall terribily at times.
Today,
I got what I demanded for a very lengthy period but at the same time I lost something that I never ever wish to lost.
I truly love and heart you.I knew a sorry wasn't the solution anymore. I don't mean to do that to you.
Yours truly,
Ivan Au, the person that I don't know anymore...
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Nobody listened to what I said.Maybe it will be better if I step away for a moment.
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I am blogging in the campus.Everything doesn't look good to me. Everything is going against me.sigh..
what should I do if everything goes wrong.
sigh.
Yours truly,
Ivan Au,emoooooooooo
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