What is the true meaning of you guys called 'love','feelings' or something else that related to these kind of thing.How much you people know about this few words?Honestly ask yourself,how much do u guys understand about it?Just ask yourself then.Well,I have experienced something realted to this kind of stuff lately.Is easy to have those what guys known as feelings between a male and a female spesies when they mixed around together too much.For my case,is something similiar to it...I guess.To be honest,this kidn of stuff is coming to me once again after so long.My mind is considering something now...Should I give myself a chance or whether she do deserve that chance from me or whatever...sigh.For this moment,I can feel that I am still lacking of something but I don't know what is that.Mistakes...that I had done previously was a painful experience to me and till now,I am still blaming myself and I cannot forgive myself for what I had done after so long.The end of the relationship between ning and I left a very deep scar deep inside my heart actually.Sometimes I think back about our stuff back,I still got the feeling that we are not over yet but what is over consider over,is just the past...well,it already brought to a comma long time ago.Other than that,I had lost my confidence on that and I am once almost collapse because of that but now,look at me.I stood from where I fall.It took me ample of time and lots of effort to stand once again.Is not easy to get up actually.What am I fear of?mistakes...repeating my mistakes is always my fear and lack of confidence is the main factor taht cause me so tired and frustrated in this so called 'world of love and romance'.This is not like a player get injured and ready for a new challenge while recovering from his injuries.That is talking about temporary and I am talking about injury that last permanently or forever perhaps.
