Finally,I got some time to breath...sorry for not updating my entries recently..I was very busy with my studies...once again...yea...this month...haha...consider a very you guys called that 'shui' month for me...you see....i bang my dad's car at the beginning of the month...then went back to malacca...looked at my physics result...almost cried out...stupid so hard and fail at the end..wat the hell is this man...nvm...next day..after my supper with kavi till 1a.m....walked back by myself...ok...there was something special happen...i heard this girl voices screaming behind of me...obviously is a natural reflexes that u gonna turn ur head back and keh po...the problem is once i turned my head to the back...i saw nothing...totally nothing...i started to feel nervous actually...i knew i was bumped into some dirty things d...and i was feeling creepy while i am on the way back actually and i am very sure that some girl voice coming from my back and there was nothing behind me actually...after that...comes to the weekend...epl..english primier league started...thought can earn some money...but dammit...i just lost 200 bucks in 2 matches...i was so frustrated...wat the hell are they playing...nvm..lucky i contra half of my lost later...and i am still in debt...gr....so now..i am back to my own house...home sweet home...not that sweet actually...i was suppose to see stars with my darling tonite...but i followed my dad back and we was as usual...dating somewhere before i went back....ngek ngek....yea about her...must admit that our relationship is developing very fast...much more faster than i thought...we are getting closer now...isnt good or bad...no idea...we are still not declared as couple yet...but then...we got no difference between those couple that we usually saw...is just that we are going too fast...she was worrying...so am i...but come on...we cant control how fast we wanna go rite...sigh...so i guess my darling was kinda moody...wanted to call her...but then she is sleeping...after that i onli knew that she was in her mood...sorry darling...sek fan lo...anyway...guess thats all guys
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Holiday...
Well,this is second entry of the week...I guess...Yeah right.Life seems to be so...empty i considered to me after back to my home.Everyday slept from 2am till 12pm noon,then slept in the afternoon again for few more hours.I wonder how can I do that man.It has been ages ever since themlast time i slept like that.I can't even do that in Malacca.I can stayed up till late night and woke up early in the morning without feeling tired but here...Godness.Woke up on 12pm till feel like sleep all the way.Sometimes I rather to stay back at Malacca,at least my darling is there.Still can see her but here in kl...my parent are busy working..i can like see them like 1 hour per day only.They came back home on about 9.Then took dinner...watch tv...sleep...I can't really have the chance to talk with them except for weekends and I feel so sick to see my aunt and my uncle staying at my house...somemore take over my room...arg!!!just hate them over take my room...sigh...
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Holiday!!!di di da da...most of papers are over and currently enjoying my 1 week holiday.What a relief...don't really have rest for this past few weeks.Everyday stay up late to study and the second day woke up early for class...somemore have to sacrifice my fencing class T.T but luckily my darling was beside me supporting me...thanks dear...i love u...but note that she is still not my gf yet...it takes time actually and i shall wait for the chance that we both are waiting for...God Bless Us...actually is kind of boring to spend my holiday at kl...everybody is studying during the weekdays...parent are working till late night...sigh...what to do...study for my coming HD paper lo...and to catch up my studies...really have to catch up if not i am really in serious shit...so my paper...uh huh...hopefully i can pass...please...pass only...is 2am now...i think i shall go to bed...if not my darling will sam thong d...hor???haha...i love u dear...and nights to everyone
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What is the true meaning of you guys called 'love','feelings' or something else that related to these kind of thing.How much you people know about this few words?Honestly ask yourself,how much do u guys understand about it?Just ask yourself then.Well,I have experienced something realted to this kind of stuff lately.Is easy to have those what guys known as feelings between a male and a female spesies when they mixed around together too much.For my case,is something similiar to it...I guess.To be honest,this kidn of stuff is coming to me once again after so long.My mind is considering something now...Should I give myself a chance or whether she do deserve that chance from me or whatever...sigh.For this moment,I can feel that I am still lacking of something but I don't know what is that.Mistakes...that I had done previously was a painful experience to me and till now,I am still blaming myself and I cannot forgive myself for what I had done after so long.The end of the relationship between ning and I left a very deep scar deep inside my heart actually.Sometimes I think back about our stuff back,I still got the feeling that we are not over yet but what is over consider over,is just the past...well,it already brought to a comma long time ago.Other than that,I had lost my confidence on that and I am once almost collapse because of that but now,look at me.I stood from where I fall.It took me ample of time and lots of effort to stand once again.Is not easy to get up actually.What am I fear of?mistakes...repeating my mistakes is always my fear and lack of confidence is the main factor taht cause me so tired and frustrated in this so called 'world of love and romance'.This is not like a player get injured and ready for a new challenge while recovering from his injuries.That is talking about temporary and I am talking about injury that last permanently or forever perhaps.
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